Life, well I've come to realise its full of surprises, yes, It's as common a catch phrase if ever I heard one, a typical cliche I know. But its true. I've spent so much of my past trying to control my future, ensuring I avoid judgement and prove people wrong, I always wanted to be great, you know, better than the rest, Im not sure whether it was a result of youthful optimism or something deeper, something real. But the thing is, I don't know how much of a say we get. I know I sure as hell didn't see this pregnancy coming along. It wasn't planned, and it bloody well scares the crap out of me. But do you know what, Im ok, and Im going to be ok, because whether I like it or not, tomorrow will come, time stands still for no one and I have no choice but to move forward.
We all have our goals, our ideas and dreams, I'm guessing my pathway needs to involve this. Maybe we need to loosen up on our ideas of perfection, maybe the roads never do run smooth. But I'll get there, I'll get my dreams, I guess this is my chance to take control of my compulsive need to control the details and just let it all go.